God is my Strength and my Eyes

The trees are turning colors as the fall weather is getting cooler and God is showing his hand in the breath-taking beauty as he dips his brush in his paint pallet. The once green leaves are now yellow, amber, rust, orange and red. Then there is the blends of tan, a little green, and a mix of purple. Those are the drama colors that make the leaves look like a fine wine color of burgundy. Looking at them is like living in his painting, standing there spell bound and in ah! I try to catch every color and let it soak in my memory, like taking photograph pictures to look at later.                                                                                                      I haven’t been seeing as good as I use too for some time. I had cataract surgery on my right eye in January and the left eye this past March. Everyone said I would love it, see better, be amazed at how vivid the colors would be and reading would be so much better. The weeks have turned into months and the disappointment and questions were getting worse. Finally, in early October I called my cataract surgeon. I explained to the doctor’s surgery nurse what was going on. I told her about the blurriness, the flashes of light, the black floaters. I even questioned if the surgery may not have work. I was taken by surprise as she said to be in the doctor’s office the very next day. After several tests were run the next day, my doctor said he wanted to send me to a Cornea specialist. The appointment was set up and was two weeks later. More tests were taken and finally an answer to why I can’t see and my sight was getting worse. I have thickening cornea's. I need Cornea Transplants in both eyes. He suggested doing lazier surgery first to see if it would help my eyes and give me more time before having the transplants. So, two weeks ago He did the lazier surgery on the left eye and I will have the right eye done December 2. So far, the follow up exam, that was done yesterday, shows the lazier surgery has not helped.                                       

Outside the days are shorter and the warm sun fades away to the night’s cooler temperatures. The leaves will not finished turning those beautiful colors for a couple of more weeks. The vivid yellow and orange leaves look like bright trees made of shinny gold and the red leaves touched by the setting sun look like burning flames or deep red berries. The warm colors relax me as I soak in every picturesque scene that God is sharing. I never want to forget the colors of fall, the glorious sunsets or sunrises, the flowers blooming in Spring, or the bright and shining winter snows. I’m not certain of what my eyesight will be but I do know that God is taking the photos I’m storing away in my memory. He will always be strength and my eyes even if my future is looking through someone else’s cornea.