Friday, March 27, 2015

I am being Stalked

I am being Stalked and no one can help. Some days my Stalker creeps in the room and just watches me which makes me feel smothered. The room becomes hot, the air is non existing. I feel like I cant hide from it. I can be in a store, the show, dining out, or sitting in church. My Stalker shows up. Its gotten worse and scares me at night! No where to run, I'm awakened many times during the night in a cold sweat from my Stalker messing with the heat. Cant rest, cant sleep the entire night. My mind , my moods, my family, my whole being on this earth is being controlled by this Stalker.
I  have told someone, but cant get  any help. They say its not their problem, that maybe one day it will leave me alone. This same Stalker followed me and controlled my life back in the early 90's. I found help then and my life went on, then last year I was told that my help was over and  I could not use my weapons for survival anymore because of changes in my life, my health. Aren't they suppose to help and protect me?
When will this Stalker leave me alone. Twice in a life time is taking a toll on me. I know the stress could cause me to have a stroke or heart attack that my Stalker is causing me. I don't want to feel this way. I don't want to be controlled by my Stalker. I don't want to be afraid to go to bed at night or out in a public place during the day. I can't take much more!
I am being Stalked and no one can help....
My stalker is Menopause!
I was told last May from my Oncologist and my Well Women Doctors that I can no longer be on Estrogen because my Cancer level changed to 98% chance of getting Cancer. I went through the change many years ago and have done great. I get  a mass three years ago in my breast, I have fought Skin Cancer for years, and three family members have had Breast Cancer and that moved me in a percentage that  was high. Because of this, I was not asked, I was told no more help from Estrogen. A warning came with that decision...  You will go back through the change again. If your Hormone level gets to a "0", it could cause a stroke or heart attack. 
My Stalker was unleashed by my own Doctors, the very ones that I placed my life in their hands to take care of me.  I trusted them!
I am being Stalked and no one can help.

3 comments:

  1. I knew where this was going from the first sentence because that stalker lives with me. I am only in peri but it is proving to be a living hell. My heart goes out to you. xo

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  2. Birdie,
    I'm sport you are going through it too! Millions of women face this horrible thing everyday but I don't want to be one of them, much less twice!
    I have an appointment with a herb and vitamin doctor to see if that route will work. We will see!

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  3. Big Hugs to you! I went through early menopause after a hysterectomy. I thought I was going to go absolutely crazy. No doctor wanted to put me on estrogen because of my history and risk of blood clots until I finally found a female gyn. I told her I would take the risk. Instead of a pill she put me on the lowest dosage via patch. I hope you can find a resolution but know that I'm praying for you.

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