Monday, June 4, 2012

Why does it hurt so much

Back at the beginning of the year, I wrote a post called
 " Don't Cry for me Down Here ".
I talked about how hard it is to say Goodbye to those we love and how we should Celebrate instead.
Then why does  it hurt so much....
Cecelia Ray Hall, Smith
Dec. 16, 1942 ~ June 4, 2012

In March of 2011, Doctors removed a seventeen pound tumor from one of Cecelia's kidneys, as well as the kidney itself. In September they found that the cancer had spread to both lungs. After three hard rounds of Chemo and surgery to remove several tumors in each lung, Cecelia was still suffering. In May 2012, they found that the cancer had spread to the brain and radiation was to begin this past week. She could only bare the one treatment when she became even sicker from the disease and was then told this past week that the cancer had spread throughout her body. She gave Cancer a good fight! 
This photo was taken only one week ago. As tired as she was and braving her pain, she still put on her wig and hung her glasses around her neck, stood with her brother and I, smiling and looking like her old self.
Why does saying goodbye hurt so much as I watch my husband say those words and tell his sister how much he loves her. She responded with her love back and told him to take care of each other, she was OK and she was ready.
Today, at 4:56 pm, she gave up the fight peacefully. Between the tears and the hugs, my husband reminds me..."Shes celebrating right now with their Mother and Father, Their Sister and Brother."
You cant help but feel that joy, that peace, that love, that celebration! Until we see you again...keep celebrating, Cecelia ! 


  1. Betty and very sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you and your families.

    God Bless.

  2. I'm so sorry Betty. Sounds like she had a lot of fight in her.

  3. James & Betty, I am so very sorry for the loss of you sister. I cried when I read your message on her death & wish there were words to comfort James through his loss. We love you both very much.
    Sis & Brother

  4. AnonymousJune 07, 2012

    I'm so sorry to hear abut Cecelia's passing. Cancer has taken so many loved ones over the past years. It sounds like she was surrounded by a very loving and supportive family. I hate to lose anyone now that I'm learning about so many relatives I knew nothing about a few years ago. My thoughts and prayers are with the family.

    Thank you for letting me know. God Bless.


  5. AnonymousJune 07, 2012

    Dear James and Betty,
    My condolences to you and your families. My thoughts are with you all.
    I was sorry to hear that she was taking a break in her treatment but each patient has that right and I'm sure her decision was an informed one.
    Sincerely, Sue

  6. Betty, my thoughts and prayers are with you and James. My heart goes out to you both.

    Sincerely, Carla and Tony

  7. AnonymousJune 08, 2012

    James and Betty Thinking of you both all the time. Cecelia looks a lot like James. She knew it was her time to go, prayers to you both. Love RH

  8. AnonymousJune 09, 2012

    James & Betty, we are very sorry to hear that you lost someone that you love and care about so much.....She had to rough and was in lots of pain and now her pain is gone and she is in a better place.....We love you both very much and hate to know you are having to be going thru this. I know you will be strong for each other and you will never get over this, but you will be there to help each other deal with your pain......GOD BLESS YOU BOTH.....Love,Bro Roy & sis in law, Renea

  9. AnonymousJune 10, 2012

    ill miss her . so glad that i got to see her one last time back in jan .


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